MASKS AND COSTUMES WE WEAR

MASKS & COSTUMES BUSTING THRU BLOCKS

 

***Just a note from Maureen Browning the author of this intuitive download I received for my SAY YES to YOURSELF a 9 week intensive program I offer in my intuitive coaching business. 

So after you read this and feel called to work with my on busting through what is holding you back then contact me. Blessings and Enjoy reading!*****

 

 

Busting through those blocks

First is the need to uncover those Shadows

Those “truths” that we thought were our truths

That drives our beliefs

Our very foundation of what we thought the patterns we built around our behaviors were actually built on shaky ground

On the ground we were led to believe is the absolute

The very truth of our perspective and vision of seeing things

What if

We find these untruths

That we have hung onto

Quoted them verbatim

Like mantras all our lives

Are actually not our truths?

You may be asking yourself

How can that be?

How could I have believed for so long that these “truths” were really NOT my truths?

That GASP they were actually someone else’s “truths”!

Like your dad, your mother, siblings or partners truths

And YOU took them on like a mantle on your shoulders as “YOUR TRUTHS”!

You carried these shadows & burdens of other people’s truths that weighed you down

Like no matter how you try to move these shadow untruths around in the dance of staying true to what no longer fits you anymore

These truths are like weighted costumes and masks that you were handed a long time ago or very recently

And you took them.

Held them as your truths

You stand before your closet full of these untruths

Trying to fit one costume or another on

Even the masks

Yet they no longer fit right

They feel awkward, itchy and hang from your shoulders in jagged unevenness from all the wear & tear

Some in tatters from all the wear

Even the masks seem false

As you try to secure them onto your face

It is taking more effort each time to wear these masks and costumes

Even as you stand in front of the mirror that reflects your mind, body and spirit

You know something isn’t right

That they no longer fit in the way they used to

No matter how much you try to adjust & move

To keep these shadow untruths in their correct place

As should any mask and costume

Even after trying and trying

Effort after effort

They just don’t work for you anymore

You may even try to match a mask you used at work, at a party or in a relationship

Firmly placed to hide your true self

You may try to match it with another costume

No matter how many times you try

You get the same results

The same feeling

That no matter what you do it just isn’t working

Yet you keep looking in your closet of costumes and masks

That has served you in the past

For that one “key” piece

That one single key that will fall into place

To make everything work

But it doesn’t

I’ve been there

Just like you I was in a school where I wanted to desperately fit in

My friends were all honor roll students and they had horses

And I was the only one of the friends who wasn’t on honor roll

Or had a horse

I just never put forth the effort even though I knew I could be on the honor roll

Instead I put on the mask

I put on the costume of the cool guys the “hoodies” to go hang around them on the “wall” of our campus as they smoked cigarettes and plan their next skipping class scheme.

Because you see I didn’t want to fully be seen as a “brainy” or a “nerd” I put on the mask to be a “cool guy” a “hoodie” all the time telling myself I wanted to be friends with a large group of people.

Yet I was wounded and didn’t want people to know

The true me

The masks were awkward yet I kept putting more on

I even wore a mask when I was married

Reciting the mantra “Now you made your bed you have to lay in it”

The vision of the desired white picket fence mask was firmly in place

The mask and costumes of being married even though my husband was absent from the relationship

From the financial responsibilities

I wore the different masks and costumes through all the years of my marriage, birth of my daughter, divorce and other unfulfilling relationships that followed over the years

Even my jobs that I had in my long career with the same company in the corporate world had the masks & costumes that became worn, frayed, frazzled and unbearable to wear

Hiding my spirituality

My intuition and healing abilities

You see I was learning which ones to wear of those shadow masks and costumes of my untruths

Changing them out for each relationship

Each situation

Each time I went into work I wore those masks and costumes that I needed to wear to survive my untruths

That I told myself this was how life was

Until my closet became overflowing with these masks & costumes of my “truths”

That weren’t really MINE to BEGIN WITH!

I became tired of dancing with those “truths”

In front of the mirror of my body, mind and spirit

I was living a lie

I was living in untruths

Of who I truly was

Afraid

Fearful

Scarred

Traumatized

Feeling victimized by repeated circumstances and situations in my life

That held me “hostage”

Until I felt totally

Paralyzed to be fully who I really was

Yet 

A part of me had strength and a knowing

That was greater then myself

A spark that wanted to grow bigger and brighter

That I was more then my wounded self

Because I didn’t know what that “key” was

I knew I needed that “one piece” of the puzzle that would fit

Just right

That would solve the “puzzle” of my life

I kept searching for it by taking classes, outside sources, building my businesses, wearing more costumes and masks

Yet not as much as before

In fits and spurts

Until finally I truly began to work on myself in a deeper way then ever before

To uncover the untruths

To strip away more of the masks & costumes I have been hiding behind

Those shadow untruths of scarcity, unworthiness, not being good enough and so many more

The hurt

The pain

I’ve peeled back layers and layers of my life, previous lives, ancestors whose truths served them

But not me

To the distorted “truths“ I learned as a child and young adult

That seemed to shape and mold me

Into something I truly was not

I learned how to identify them

I peeled back those layers of the onion

I learned how to find the entry points of their origins

Uncovering the shaky foundation these untruths and shadows were built on

To be willing and able to let them dissolve away

To be transmuted into a higher vibration

That allows me to step in

To step up

To who I truly am

This unique wonderful beautiful light being

Who knows

And trusts

In the wisdom and knowledge

That was always there

I just had to

Say Yes to Myself!

To really embrace

Who and What I AM

I know it is a journey

A process that may take more years of my life to fully uncover all

That I am imperfectly perfect

It may be scary

Yet it is so exciting

To finally

Say Yes to Life

To say Yes to Yourself!

So if you have read this far

I know you have been called

And listened to your intuition

To follow that intuition that calls within you

Like a magnet

To read this

To know that you too can relate

To the story of my transformation

Of wearing these masks and costumes

That you are ready

To step in

And step up

To allowing yourself

To shine

To remember

And be

Your own unique wonderful beautiful light being that you already are

To learn how to fully trust and know there is a way out

It is through

Knowing its finally time

To step into and embrace your true luminous light

 YOU

Are you ready to take that next step of faith and trust

To giving yourself permission

No matter how scary and excited you are

Take that step of contacting me?

Let chat

Let’s see what magic lies ahead for you

That luminous light of YOU